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It's been a nice few days. I've made bread a couple of times - I tried a no knead recipe and it's okay, but it's not good. It's soft and it only works well if it's baked in very small amounts, like buns or rolls. I've gone back to my usual basic bread recipe, but it stuck a little to the bread pans. Geordie's ordered me a pair of silicone bread pans. I'm looking forward to using them.

I made lemon curd, as well, and orange curd. I've done some plotting and outlining for a couple of original stories I'm working on.

I only have one chapter left in my ongoing Hobbit fanfic. It's been two and a half years and I sort of don't know what I'll do with myself on Friday nights now that it's over.

I've been working on things to sell on etsy, but I just hate the advertising and marketing part. I sort of wish I could do the sewing and drawing and such and then someone else would just come along and do the photography and posting and stuff for me. *sigh*''

I've also been working on tidying up the house. Geordie bought a new Braun chopper/blender/thingy which means I could move the blender and food processor up to storage. This means the counter is much clearer, which is nice.

Catching up, but mostly doctor stuff

I haven't heard from the phone interview. It's been just over a week (she'd said she'd get back to me in a week, but given how slowly hiring actually happens, I figured that it'll be longer.). I emailed the recruiter, though, just to check.

I've been to the doctor today. I have a deep cough that won't go away. Not productive, but sometimes in my chest. It's dry and hacking and, when it won't stop for minutes, becomes halfway to sounding (and feeling) like my body's trying to vomit. It's NOT nice. Drinking water doesn't help; sometimes it exacerbates it. What does help is extremely mentholated cough drops. Regular mints don't work. It feels as if I've got something stuck in the back of my throat, or a dry patch. Swallowing doesn't help, and it doesn't always happen after eating, so it's unlikely that it IS something real stuck in the back of my throat.

Also, there's a painful bit, on the right side of my innards, deep into my body just to the right of my navel. It's not my intestines - those I can feel and they're normal. It's also not my stomach - that's much higher (although it, too, can be painful when pressed on; I've a long history of acid reflux.)

Also, my blood pressure's been up (to 140/90) for the past few months. We think this might be connected to the recent increase in my synthroid dosage (although, now that I think about it, the bp was up before we raised the synthroid dose). Since it's not going down and it's holding steady (almost no fluctuation; I have a home bp tester and it's showing just about exactly what the doctor's does), we've started me on lysinopril, to lower my blood pressure.

I've got a referral for an ultrasound for my belly and I'll be getting an authorization for an ENT visit where, we hope, they'll run a camera down my nose to take a look at things. I'll ask for a copy of the video, 'cause I love to see this stuff.

I'd sort of like a new body, please. This one is breaking.

Terminator Questions.

We're watching The Terminator (the first one) and something has always confused me. Sarah's room mate, Ginger, always has her headphones on playing music. ALWAYS. When she's dressing, when she's showering, when she's having sex ... were any of you that devoted to your music?

Also, we see Arnie getting his guns, but where does Rhys get his?

And how do the clothes from the skinny punkass kids at the beginning fit Arnie?

Anyway, back to watching and knitting.


Phone job interview today in half an hour and wow, but I'm distracted by the political mayhem going on.


Okay, focus. I've gone over the skills I have that they're asking for, I'm looking at their website to see if there's anything I can find to ask about (other than things like contract conversion rates, which aren't appropriate to ask at this early stage), I've wrapped myself in knitting and blankets so I don't shiver audibly on the phone, I've finished a cup of coffee and had a good meal, one of my cats is snoozing in the room as a good-luck charm...


I'm posting this here because this doesn't cross over (much) with my Facebook feed.

I've a couple of 'friends' - more acquaintances - on Facebook who post things which make me so frustrated. They're petty little things, and not anything I need to be involved in, but sometimes I just want to say what I think instead of being politely encouraging (as is 'polite' now) or simply ignore things.

For example, one woman is 'on a journey of self-actualization' and yeah, we all need to know ourselves and all that jazz, but every single picture she posts is of her own face, but mostly blurred. Her eyes are usually sharpened and then the rest of her is Artfully Softened.

Yes, what she posts isn't my business. It's not the constant selfie-dom that really bugs me, it's the goddamn fuzzing. FFS, lady, you look the way you look (in her case, she looks quite attractive by any standard, certainly from the collarbones up, which is all she ever shows), so why the fucking Gaussian Blur-o-Rama?

It doesn't help that every one of these posts is over a slightly passive-aggressive statement about Learning To Love Oneself and Loving One's Flaws, to which all her friends jump in with the expected compliments and reassurances.

I'm aware that my annoyance with her doing this is my problem, so I don't say anything to her about it. Just ... sometimes I wish I could be direct with her.

Anyway, I'm going back to writing, now. Petty rant over!


Do I want to spend $25/year to be able to convert pdfs to word and excel sheets from Adobe? I've tried the free online methods and they're not working for the documents I have.

Well, poop

I didn't get the job I interviewed for on Wednesday. I thought I'd done pretty well - two of the three interviewers seemed to like me quite a bit. The hiring manager especially seemed to like me.

However, I got an email from the recruiter today that said I didn't get the job and had this feedback from the company.

1. The role being entry level and her desire to be in a lead or supervisory role within 6 month.
a. It is great to have goals and to be ambitious but it need to be realistic.
2. Not answering questions during the interview and interrupting the interviewers.
a. She was enthusiastic and excited to be here but it is concerning when candidates don’t allow interviewers to finish their statements or answer the question they were asked.

I am pleased that I got real feedback, but I'm a bit confused. I didn't say I wanted to be in a supervisory role in 6 months, that's much too fast. I don't want to be doing basic entry level tasks after a year or so, sure, and I know I said that.

I will admit I probably jumped the gun with some of the questions. That's something I can fix immediately.

However, the not answering questions? That one's bugging me. One of the questions I got was this: "Why did you choose to get a science degree?"

Um? Because I like science? A friend of mine says I should say things like, "It's always been my dream. Even as a small child I loved the idea of science."

Also, the same interviewer asked me how I work with people who are different from me. By doing my work and getting along with others. Seems basic to me, but yeah, I guess I've got to come up with an answer for this.


There were three interviewers. The first and second went well - very well, it seemed. The third interviewer was very different; she just didn't seem to like me. She's the one who asked both of the above questions, and she kept saying that the job is 100% boring repetitive tasks.

This was an entry level manufacturing job at a company which gets really bad marks on glassdoor. The complaints are all that there's no training and no management, that the entry level jobs are literally labeling tubes for 8 hours a day 5 days a week, with random unpaid overtime and no chance of movement.

The first two interviewers made a point of saying that there's a shiny new training program and that no one has to do repetitive tasks all the time, although there are points in the manufacturing cycle where that is the main task.

The third one asked me why, if all my experience is in research, I'm applying for manufacturing jobs. I said that research is all that's done in school and that all my experience is academic. And that I understand that manufacturing is vital and important - if we don't make the things to help people, there's no point in inventing the cures at all.

The third interviewer used to be in charge of the manufacturing department and recently changed departments - right before the new people create a training program. Any bets about what's going on in the management?

I'm frustrated with not getting the job, although it was just barely above my minimum pay and for a company that doesn't sound great. The coming management fight looks uncomfortable.

I mean, it would be nice to have gotten a job, but maybe it's okay to have missed out on this one.

End of the weekend

It's been a nice weekend. Geordie and I spent all of Saturday in the house, cuddled on the couch and watching movies and random stuff on youtube. I got a friend onto Skype, so we can talk more, which is really great.

Today, we went out and just drove around in San Francisco and Alameda, stopping off at a nice grocery store at the end and bringing home half the veggies in the world. Geordie made slow-cooked ribs for dinner (delicious, omg) and I made quick 'pickled' cabbage using a packet of seasonings from Daiso. I like it, but I'm not sure I'd call it pickling, as it doesn't use vinegar but mostly seasoned salt. (Tasty, just not pickled.)

I've a lot of plans for the coming weeks, including (I hope) a job interview either Wednesday or Friday. I'm hoping for Wednesday, as I don't really want to be out of the house on Friday, Inauguration Day. I want to be home, hiding under the fucking bed.

Also, is there anyone out there who's both a Tolkien fan and knows if there's an Albanian version of the Lord of the Rings. Specifically Albanian, and ... more the Silmarillion, now that I think of it. I'd like to know if there's a specific name other than Annatar used for that particular version of Sauron in an Albanian translation.

Anyway, it's later than I wanted to go to bed and I'm not sleeping in tomorrow, no matter how much it's too cold outside of my bed.

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